Are you a Fair Self Judge?

John 1:46     “Nazareth!?  Can anything good come from there?”

Psalm 19:14    Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.

Matthew 5:22  “But I say to you that whoever is angry with his brother without cause shall be in danger of the judgment.  And whoever says to his brother, ‘Raca!’ shall be in danger of the council.  But whoever says, ‘You fool!’ shall be in danger of hell fire.    {Raca seems to mean empty headed, foolish}

John 7:24    “Do not judge according to appearance, but judge with righteous judgment.”


Are you most of the time obedient?  I am not and it frustrates me to no end.   My mouth and my thoughts are such a frequent disappoint to me.  I know He knows I am trying to be Christ-like and obedient, and my thoughts are very unruly and seem to escape into my full mind before I can lasso them.  And then I am sorry and remorseful and feel a bit helpless.  I know the Holy Spirit must be doing something to steer me from impatience and self -frustration and denigrating words to myself, yet in they pop…and yes, relevant to whatever I am fighting with, but that is NOT the way God wants us talking to ourselves.  He wants us to be kind.  Yes, to others, but also to OURSELVES.  It hurts Him that we scold and say hurtful things to ourselves.  ‘Why can you NOT keep up with your keys, your glasses?  Why do you have to waste time by forgetting all the things you need for your errands and have to run up and down the stairs several times?  Why can you not be all together and organized?  Why can you not put things in the same place after each use?”

Keys in pocket of purse; glasses back in case or on head; put papers back in correct folders—these are simple and easy enough to do, and then save you so much time, frustration, and aggravation!   But one act then results in frustration which creates the irritation that then has me spewing disgusting words at myself.   I am a negative self judge.   I beat my own back, mind and will.

God does not want us thinking and judging ourselves and others in a negative manner.  Nor does He want us thinking or judging in a superior manner, as we often tend to do with actors, athletes, or politicians.  We tend to overstate or think they’re worth a lot.  We do not judge in the manner thatGod does.  He looks at the hearts of each and then  judges, and that makes me feel worse when I catch myself scolding and being angrily muttering my frustrations to myself.  I am negatively judging, and then harshly condemning.  There is little kindness in the manner I handle my mistakes and then scold myself.  Definitely not as Jesus forgave and told others to repent and move on.  

I can be much kinder and gentler to others.  I do not judge as harshly, and am quick to catch my thoughts when they stray to judging another.  There have been times I have judged because of the tattoos spread over another.  It bothers me to see a lot of tats on a female, and I wonder why anyone would choose to do that.  I shake my head but at least I no longer wonder if the person is a biker, a violent bully, or maybe a drug user.  And I apologize to any who have tattoos. 

I know this is my own crazy judgment, and has nothing to do with the inner person.  I have three children, many friends and acquaintances with tattoos and most of them I love.  The negative aspects come from seeing the tats not as artwork, although I admit many are lovely and there is a talent in many of the designs.  I am not sure if this judgment comes from childhood, perhaps hearing my parents’ judge persons with tattoos, or whatever.  I don’t know.  But for some reason, I don’t like them, although simple and small ones are ok.  But, I also love the way God designed us and we did not come in with tattoos, so why change what He perfected?

But my point is, I have no business judging another for any reasons.  But certainly, most persons I see with tattoos I don’t know.  So obviously I should have no judgment.  But again, I find judgmental thoughts sneaking in.

And they sneak with a vengeance into my mind about myself.  It is one of my constant prayers that this judgmental mentality will be loosened.  It is so quick and therefore frustrating.  It’s there before I’ve thought to think, to guard.

Anyway, it is one of my areas of sinfulness that I continue to work on.  And confess.  And to trust that the Holy Spirit is eventually going to lasso this and we can move onto the next area of sinfulness He wants to hone.

God, thank You for Your patience and generosity for me and ‘mybellaviews.”